some pretty weird things have been happening lately, and by weird i mean bad..and not to me, to my friends..i guess i feel kinda helpless being so far away from them. as much as i want to i can't always be there for them. all i can do is text message or call which kinda isn't enough to comfort a broken heart. oh well, like i always say..."its just another one of those things i have to live with"..

i've been feeling a bit anti-social lately. i'd always rather stay home than go out and make small talk with people at the gatherings that we go to. im getting tired of meeting new people, smiling politely and trying to make the conversations less painful. i really miss just being my crazy self outside home. you know, the way i can be with my crazy friends, not caring if anyone takes notice or not because you've got your friends who look as ridiculous, if not more than you do.

anyways..i've been listening to this song by the academy is entitled "everything we had"..the part where he says TAKE THE PAIN OUT OF LOVE AND THE LOVE WON'T EXIST..i mean, is it really like that? does love really come with and extra pound of pain? i get what he says though, i've never seen anyone madly inlove and not feel something that stings a little inside. the person you love doesn't have to hurt you intentionally, they just have to be a few miles away and make your heart ache for them. i get that. i kinda miss that feeling actually.

they say..THE DAY YOU THINK THAT LOVE IS OVER-RATED IS THE DAY THAT YOU'RE WRONG..who am i to comment? i've only been inlove once and blew up in my face. im not even sure if it was real love, it was probably just an intense teenaged infatuation. but who knows??

what is all this talk about love? i think i just ate too much pizza today. i know what you're thinking, what the hell is the connection between love and pizza?