gotta love jason wade's lyrics - "blind" by lifehouse..

its saturday, and im sitting in front of the pc doing my homework. well, kinda doing my homework. haha.  its freezing here. as i type, everytime a push a key on the keyboard, part of the button fogs up because the keyboard is cold and my fingers are a tad warmer.

last night i was shaking in my bed. i had to wait for my body to warm up the sheets. the first few seconds of laying in my bed were painfully cold. i fell asleep shaking. haha. i have to buy a heater.

i started watching veronica mars a couple of weeks ago. and the moment i started gettin addicted to it, i find out that I GOT CANCELLED!. oh well..

i just finished getting my clothes ready for tomorrow morning. apparently, according to the weatherman, its gonna be 3 degrees tomorrow morning and its gonna freeze my big ass off. its really is cold here this time of the year. i think this is the coldest i've ever experienced, including the camping days in the abu dhabi deserts during the months of january and february. here its cold and damp and it hurts my joints. *SO NANNA!* oh well..like everything else, this too shall pass.

i just spent the last two days reformatting two desktop pcs. the first one was really frustrating because i had absolutely no idea as to what i was doing. so i used my dad's laptop to look for helpful sites and i found one. it was really good. i took me step by step, screen by screen, and it even had a description on every choice i made on each screen. i'd highly recomend it if you have any computer issues. --->> http://pcsupport.about.com/

so now im in the middle of polishing up everything with both of these desktop pcs. i think i might have to upgrade to a better RAM tho, a friend told me to get a 1GB RAM because i've only installed a few programs on it and its already complaining. im not even sure if i know what im talking about. but anyways, so far so good. everything's set up and all.

when i first got here (australia) i made a list of the first few things that i wanted to do here. the list includes:

1. Get a driver's licence - i may have to postpone this one until i get back from my holiday...
2. get a desktop pc - this one i can scratch off! woohoo!!
3. get an original brand new gibson les paul and an amplifier - half way through! i just bought my first every amplifier yesterday. its a roland cube something something. NOT BAD FOR A FIRST!! nyahaha.
4. joint a sports team - this one might take a while.

*im still exciting about my holiday!hope everything goes well!*

"like everything else, this too shall pass" this is my new motto. whatever life throws at me, i know that it'll pass. no matter what it is, it'll pass. no matter how bad, just close your eyes, cover your ears and let is pass. just make sure you remember to breathe.

i've been very unhealthy lately. i was sick the day after my birthday. and as i type this i feel like i caught my brother's virus. you know that feeling you get when your nose is all stuffy and you're throat feels kinda thick. not that im complaining, its just that its not good to be unhealthy.

i finally booked my flight. im excited like crazy! can't wait!

its june 17, 4.30 pm. if i went to work to today i would have been getting ready to go home right about now. but im not at work. i called in sick. which i am. i feel like crap. my ankle hurts, i have a headache and the rest of my body is sore from carrying a lot of stuff all day yesterday. *not that im complaining, no*..

yesterday was my birthday, and i turned 20. yes 20. older people would say "only?!" and younger people would say "already?!" i am no longer a teenager and i have no problems with that. at least i think i don't. the past 10 years of my life was a blessing. especially the last 5 years. even with all of the drama that every teenager goes through i can still say that im blessed.

i was just reading through my other blog from friendster.com. the last post was entitle "2nd post of the year" i think the exact time i was typing that blog was the happiest point in my life. i don't think i can remember being happier than that. then i scrolled down a bit to the end of the page and i found this post..

im having a bit of a tough week, my "gout arthritis" *emphasis on the qoute because im still in a state of disbelief about that* is acting up again. and unlike before it bothers me a lot because i need my feet to go to work and all. oh well, im thinking of getting it checked and find out what it really is once and for all.

anways..its really cold here. it was 4 degrees last friday night. it was so cold it hurt to the bone. i never thought i'd say this but i miss summer. my toes are so cold i feel like im gonna loose them to frostbite..

some pretty weird things have been happening lately, and by weird i mean bad..and not to me, to my friends..i guess i feel kinda helpless being so far away from them. as much as i want to i can't always be there for them. all i can do is text message or call which kinda isn't enough to comfort a broken heart. oh well, like i always say..."its just another one of those things i have to live with"..

i've been feeling a bit anti-social lately. i'd always rather stay home than go out and make small talk with people at the gatherings that we go to. im getting tired of meeting new people, smiling politely and trying to make the conversations less painful. i really miss just being my crazy self outside home. you know, the way i can be with my crazy friends, not caring if anyone takes notice or not because you've got your friends who look as ridiculous, if not more than you do.

anyways..i've been listening to this song by the academy is entitled "everything we had"..the part where he says TAKE THE PAIN OUT OF LOVE AND THE LOVE WON'T EXIST..i mean, is it really like that? does love really come with and extra pound of pain? i get what he says though, i've never seen anyone madly inlove and not feel something that stings a little inside. the person you love doesn't have to hurt you intentionally, they just have to be a few miles away and make your heart ache for them. i get that. i kinda miss that feeling actually.

they say..THE DAY YOU THINK THAT LOVE IS OVER-RATED IS THE DAY THAT YOU'RE WRONG..who am i to comment? i've only been inlove once and blew up in my face. im not even sure if it was real love, it was probably just an intense teenaged infatuation. but who knows??

what is all this talk about love? i think i just ate too much pizza today. i know what you're thinking, what the hell is the connection between love and pizza?

another week has passed..this week was a bit weird. it was horrible actually. it started out ok. you know, the usual routine of getting up, going to work, coping with everything. and then pay day comes in, i buy credit to make some overseas calls only to find out that one of my friends is having a pregnancy scare. *jaw drops*..i got worried, not only was this friend a close friend she's one of those people who i knew would never do..well you know. anyways, words were said, anger was expressed, then the words "no matter what happens i'll be here for you" were said. to make a long story short, after a few days it was confirmed that she is in fact NOT PREGNANT!..*wipes forehead*..

the week ended on a good note though. it was casual friday at work (which happens every last friday of the month) and instead of having friday night drinks at the office after five, our bosses decided to wind down early and start the drinks at 4.30..i never go to these gatherings, for one thing i finish work at 4.30 and i don't drink. but since they started early, i stayed for a bit, met up with a friend in the city and had ice cream with fries. like i said, a good note.

i've started on the course that i was supposed to take. i have about 2 months to complete 3 units worth of assignements. i have no idea if i can make it but lets see..

its raining pretty hard tonight..it was raning pretty much the whole day today.. i tried going out while it rained. i couldn't remember the last time i stood in the rain and just had fun. but everytime i went out it would stop. kinda sucked though. hehe. wasn't even worth catching i cold for.

well its the weekend again. i woke up at 1 in the afternoon today. it was saturday, my sleep-in day. love it. haha. its always nice to know that when you wake up, you don't actually need to get up.

i seriously have nothing to blog about. i bored with this already. haha